There's no such thing as fairy tales.

Trust.

Honesty.

If you don't have those,

You don't get respect.

And I hate to tell you I told you so. But I kind of knew it was going to happen.

One, two, three steps forward. One, two steps back.

When will it end?

How is it, you ask?

It's hard. Really hard, I say.

Two weeks. But there's a lot left. We can make it.

Sometimes you have to make sacrifices. For what is better.

Some people are jerks. Not good people. Actions speak louder than words. Open your eyes.

I need to clean up my stuff. All of my crap from school is lying around the house. And my room is messy.

I wish it would end. It's a terrible experience. I see so much pain.

Arena is dangerous.
Happiness.
Sadness.
I've always been happy/satisfied after. Today was the first day I felt terrible. I went to sign up for classes, and they would close up right when I went up to them. The only classes that were open were ones during 11/12 or 14/15, and those are my locked classes.
But everyone must have bad pick. It's the cycle that is the arena rotation.
The only thing I'm pissed off about is that we work for hours. We run the arena all day, and we go in there tired and a little stressed out. Then we come out with bad schedules. Then a lot of people have go back to work. Personally, I felt drained when I went into arena.
I hate arena. It's so stressful.
I love arena. I can't imagine my high school life without it. To control your schedule (or not if you have bad pick) is a wonderful thing. To be responsible of your life for the next semester. To choose. It's a freedom I'm thankful to have. It's an opportunity that our school only has.
I'm still sad and pissed off. I swore so much when I realized I was going to file incomplete. I think I scared some people.

Incomplete. Was this day. Overall, today was not a good day. I can think of three specific things.

Don't listen to them. They ain't your real friends.

These things make you see the very fine line between your friends and those uncaring acquaintances.

The truth is that everyone in life goes through problems.

It's just that we have different issues we must work out. Some may seem worse than others, but I guess it's all a part of life.

Thank you to everyone who is here for me right now. It means a lot. I don't know what I would do without you.

Happy birthday mommy. I didn't have anything for her. Usually I work on it with my brother.

What a birthday, huh? She said we'll do something later. I know when later is. I just don't think it's any time soon.

I'm tired of hearing the same painful story over and over again except I can't stop listening. Every time I can't believe it. This cannot be possible. I'm sure she gets tired of telling it. Just like how I am too.

Reality is sinking in. It doesn't make it any more okay. Life is so fucked up.

I heard that in the House season finale, House goes to a psychiatric hospital.

And I hear complaints all around. I have a final tomorrow! I'm going to die. I have so many problems. I don't know how to deal with them. Not going to lie. I say that stuff too. But every single time I hear something. Every time I feel something like this slip out. My heart hurts. I have become so sensitive.

And to top it off, I would have already had enough time to worry about. Last dance. Dragons tournament. Finals. LSA. Shield and Scroll. Peers. School. My new schedule. Graduation. Arena. School is a good distraction from life though. It's so fabricated and light. Nothing bad happens. It's so fake when I look at it now. That's kind of what I need.

I GOT A B IN ENGLISH. Good thing. Or I would have cried. But these past few days have made me realized that there's more to life. But I still appreciate the grade. It would have been a terrible scar on my report card.

And I talk about how much I'm suffering. But I still have no idea what suffering is. And I'm almost positive you don't know either.

I go through my days. People feel bad that I have been through so much. They don't even know the fucking half of it. The new part. Something almost as bad.

I don't have any freaking time for any of that pointless shit. It's a bigger deal than it needs to be. Other things in the world are so much more important. So you guys need to get over it.